Becoming a filmmaker seems brilliant. You get to travel the world, see amazing sights and come home with a highly-cinematic piece of art. The problem with these travel videos such as Sam Kolder’s or Peter McKinnon’s, is that they weren’t made “on holiday” but instead, their travels are entirely dedicated to filming.
This is where I feel my film-making falls behind. When I go abroad, it is on holiday. I am not a professional video creator and as such do not get paid to film, meaning I cannot afford to travel purely for video purposes. I also enjoy travelling with people and 99% of the time they are not interested in video. This causes them to get frustrated with having to stop all the time and shoot. I am at a point in my life where I am not certain if I will be able to return to another city or country and I want to get the most out of it for myself and my video creation and that is where the conflict lies. I want to embrace the places I go to but create art at the same time. That balance is the most difficult thing to find as an enthusiast filmmaker.
I would love to create videos with a strong narrative and well composed shots but it just isn’t possible without annoying the group you are with or missing out on things. Sometimes I don’t feel like filming, then I start to worry about how the film may look and I end up completely missing the point of a holiday.
In my latest video from Vienna, I tried to keep the balance but the are always two sides to the coin. Shots may have been shaky but I had fun socialising, on the other hand I could have missed important moments because I wanted a good shot.
I suppose the only option is to choose a side and stick with it. I want to create travel videos and have these amazing ideas of the story I want to tell. That is where I need to tell myself that I am here to create this film and I will put all my effort into it. It’s either go hard or go home. Maybe this would be best done alone, or with a group of people that understand what I need to do, why I am doing it and can possibly help out. I don’t enjoy always being waited for because of my camera and I have taken it to less places recently to try and free myself up. I enjoyed not having the gear with me, I felt like I didn’t have to try.
I guess it’s time for me to go on an actual holiday, and leave it all behind. I’ll miss out video wise, but who cares? I’ve lived my life.
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